410-24 in the early afternoon, jun 24, 2024, edition [oct, 18, 2024, fri], in portuguese, edição]

in the early

cool afternoon

with no defined destine

I wander around the city

but it seems to suffocate me

the density of anguish

confuses me

and intensively

drains my energy

in addition to diffused symptoms

and unstable impressions

lack of meaning

in daily errands

and when

I begin to write

I observe myself

increasing my perception

of mind and body unbalanced

I keep writing

and feeling

slowly

the anxiolytic

doing its effect

once  again  the  realization

of  not  being  able to avoid 

pharmaco's  regular  dosage

of how my will 

isn't enough

for survival

against 

the desire 

for autonomy 

i realize my frailty

even momentarily

i leave the random path

@vanres2023

07/24/2024

08/14/2024

10 out 2024

oct 17, 2024

Antologia: Miríade e Distopia (2004-2024) - draft

Previous versions 

410-24 no início da tarde, 24/07/2024, draft, [10/10/2024, 5a], english, draft

410-24 in the early afternoon, jun 24, 2024, draft, portuguese version, [oct, 17, 2024, fri]

in the early

cool afternoon

with no clear direction

I wander around the city

it seems to suffocate me

the density 

of anguish

confuses me

it drains my energy intensely

but I continue on a random path

in addition to diffused symptoms

unstable impression

of lacking meaning

for daily

errands

and I begin to write

while I observe myself

increasing my perception

mind and body

unbalanced

after so many crisis

I continue 

writing

and

I feel

slowly

the anxiolytic

taking its desired effect

once  again  the  realization

of  not  being   time to avoid 

the regular morning dosage

against the desire for autonomy 

I realize my fragility 

how my will

isn't enough

for survival

@vanres2023

07/24/2024

08/14/2024

10/09/2024

Antologia: Miríade e Distopia (2004-2024) - draft

Portuguese versions of the poem

410-24 no início da tarde, 24/07/2024, draft, [10/10/2024, 5a], english, draft